Chapter Two

I hate her.
Stop talking to her please.
I feel like she’s gonna break us up.
The TBH post had me convinced that you’re mine.
Now, I just don’t know.

Baby lips. — just stop.
Big hands. — not okay.
Winky faces. — ABSOLUTELY NOT.

Babysitting again today. Schools gonna be dumb as hell..

So after school Erin picked me up and took me home. While I was there, I got a text from my babe…well, his roommate, sting that Devon is in the ER cause he got stung by two jellyfish.. Well, the doctors shocked him and it fucked with his heart thingy.. ALL BAD.
Hes fine now..

Babysitting was whatever. As always, made bank.
Grandma drove me to Taco Bell cause we has NO FOOD at my house.

Happy Wednesday..

School then babysitting.
We got our grill today so thats cool I guess..

I was on my way home from babysitting and I got a text from Devy.. It said:
“I really need to say this because you’ve been on my mind all day everyday for the past two weeks. I really care about you a lot. You’re beautiful and amazng, you’re perfect. Everything I want. I think relationships last longer if you fall in love before you date and I feel I’m at that stage. I think I am in love with you. Warped tour is so far away and I don’t think I can wait until then to call you mine. I will promise to never give up on us, never hurt you, or do anything to make you feel unhappy in anyway. Will you be mine Andii?”

Of course I said yes.

Even classes makes my days by so much faster.. Especially when we watch movies in first block then talk shit all second block ..then lunch I get to be the lady dr phil. Music always goes my fast cause I have band practice. Then Ivan’s class is stupid so I make jokes and it’s over then schools out.. My mummy’s gonna pick me up and were all gonna go get dinner at Baja Fresh and then I’m gonna go home and watch the SEASON FINALE OF GLEE. OMG IM DEAD.

First off, UGH it’s Monday,
Second, YAY it’s Monday, I get out early.

Took my grandparents out to In n Out and also Starbucks then to Old Town Clovis for them to window shop. They had a good time..

Devy is trying to piss his ex, Shasta, off by flirting with Kylie and I’m extremely jealous. He hasn’t texted me in like 5 hours. ….cool.

I feel sick as fuck. I’m feeling insecure as hell and Im having bad anxiety. I’m worried about Logan because I haven’t heard form him in ages… I’m a terrible person and so kill me.

Happy Sunday bitches.
Grandparents are gonna be here around 8.
Gotta finish cleaning. HOLY SHIT KILL ME.
Kay, that’s all. Bye now.

So it’s Saturday and I have been cleaning all day.
Texting Devy..
I was supposed to go to Shaver Lake with him today until tomorrow morning but I can’t because my grandparents are coming and I have to finish cleaning. Ugh.

Finally Friday. …
Mommy picked me up from school..
I went to the mall to get new bras ..
My mom wanted me to get fitted ..
I walk into Victorias Secret and get fitted right?
Well the results almost had me on the floor.
Ready for this?
32DDD … LITTLE OLE ME?!?!

Yeah. Explains why my back ALWAYS hurts..
FML.

Also, they may sell that size at VS …$55 for one bra.

Today I got caught up in my classes.. Got home and continued cleaning. …idk been feeling insecure af and depressed af lately. Trying really hard to hide it cause honestly if one more person asks me I might punch them in that face.

“are you sad?”
“are you tired?”
“are you upset?”
“are you mad?”
“are you bored?”
“are you okay?”

“YES DAMMIT. THIS IS JUSTBMY GODDAMN FACE. WILL YOU STOP FUCKING ASKING ME ALL THESE ANNOYING FUCKING QUESTIONS NOW?!? FUCK!!”

I’m sorry I didn’t blog today…
I’ve been really busy cleaning because
my grandparents are gonna be here Sunday…
Cool

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!!
I love you so very much..

School was average, but during geometry I was n Facebook and saw that my mom had got sprayed in the face with mace at the mall because of some shoplifter. Uhh, cool?
Helped serve lunch and got my detention waived cause of it. Super cool. Rocked my English test. Got home, mom picked me up from iHop and we went to dinner at Applebee’s where I surprised her and got them to song and whatnot without even having to leave the table or ANYTHING. thanks to my iPad, I wrote “it’s her birthday” on my doodle app and the girl read it super secret like and at the end of our meal they came out with this HUGE ice cream sundae and a sparkler and it was awesome..

We went to Target and Walgreens and Home Depot and then went home and began cleaning the FUCK out of my house.
Grandparents will be here one week from today. FUCK.

School.. I’m working REALLY hard to get caught up.. There’s a lot I have to do..

Tomorrow is mummy’s birthday …awesome.